10:09 PM
Wednesday, August 31, 2005
arhhaa.. today is bibi's bdae.. =D shall wish her a happi birthday!!! 18 yrs old le..well.. i've a birthday chalet cum bbq. sponser by my daddyy!! haa.. and thanks those who come to my chalet.. =D i'm a bad host lar.. so.. forgive mi!!! lol.. well.. i enrol into the sch drivin course.. at bbdc.. haaa.. =D exams coming soon arhh.. so tired.. so stress!!!! arghh.. nothin to blog.. haaa.. =xtt pig is 20 yrs old.. old pig.. zzZz
12:55 AM
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
wel wel wel.. know every1 is worried abt mi but.. i'm realli realli fine.. and i'll be fine.. n HIM[pls dun cal mi cry baby le] tis goes to ah kor aso.. n HIM [ dun spank mi le] 'll pain de.! haa.. basicalli.. nothin much happen today.. just tt we broke up. yea.. i initiate de.. hw NOT understandin i am.. well.. i aso dunno.. i wan to stay by his side.. to support him. but.. mentalli.. i can't take it ya.. so.. phew.. everything is gone~ my parents still din know these.. haa.. guess 've to break tis news to them sooner or later.. haa.. nex is my birthday haben reach yet.. on 26 aug!!!! kindly take note.. lol!!!! =D well... gonna 18~~ excited~
2:18 PM
Monday, August 22, 2005
i realli dun understand him.he totalli dun care mi..what for i shed tears for him.what for i gif a damn hw's he doin.what for i STILL bother to call n sms him.what for i STILL bother to wait for his call.. WHY!!!!!!!!he made mi damn sad for the past few days.. or rather.. weeks.. i realli dunnnno what had gotten into him. he just.. treat mi sooo UNIMPORTANTLY! tis is nt what i wan.. if he is just nt ready for r/s.. he shldn't start a r/s wif me.. he din even bother to call or sms to tell mi what happen.. he just SIMPLY DUN BOTHER ABT HW I FEEL! i mean.. at least.. i feel tt he shld clarify things with mi.. but HE DIN! and.. i'm realli so damn disappointed.. i wan things to work out.. but.. he just treat it as rubbish or dirt.. i dun like tis.. i simply hate what he has done.. to mi. i tried to work things out.. by sms him n call him.. tellin him hw i feel. but.. after tt.. no action has been done.. it's been gg 3 weeks since we mit.. and i can sae... HIS FEELING FOR MI IS NO LONGER THERE... i dun wan things to end tis way.. i tot he's the 1 for mi.. but.. he feels tt career is much much much more important than mi.. or rather.. he wan to be successful.. i can tolerate once..twice.. or even thrice.. or maybe more.. BUT NT ALWAYS.. u've to think for mi aso... y are u so selfish.. u onli think for urself.. what abt mi.. am i just NOTHIN to u? if i'm nothin to u.. what's the pt of being together.. i totalli at a loss.. i wan love from u.. but tis is what i get in return.. i'm realli lost... do i realli mean nothin to u? whenever i'm feelin down.. u're alwais nt there.. in fact.. those who console mi are my frens.. where are u.. nt even a sms or call from u. is this is most u can do for mi? y must things end so fast... y must u be lidat.. n there's 1 thing i MUST LET U KNOW! u can nv balance work fren n gf. n ya.. i'm the least priority amongst all this.. n i can tell u this.. u've defeated mi.. u've successfully mess up my life..
11:11 PM
Friday, August 19, 2005
life is full of regrets.. haf u guys ever sit down n look back at those things u've done.. like how mani ppl u've hurted.. hw mani ppl make u drop tears n stuff lidat? yea.. i guess i've my own regret too.. i regret a lot a lot of stuff.. often we need to make choice.. or shld i sae.. we alwais need to make a decision..each deecision we make.. lead to other stuff.. i din know.. but.. it's kinda hard to decide what in life u wan.. until somethin happen.. i guesss tt's life.. i regret.. i regret.. i realli regret lettin him go.. she told mi not to ponder over it. but i still do.. i still tryin hard nt to think.. but can i? i realli wonder.. life is full of ups n downs. sometimes.. i'm on the verge of breakin down.. studies.. problems.. depressions n things lidat.. but... those ups like.. precious times spend with love 1.. haaa.. i realli wonder... life is so wonderful.. without problems n stuff.. just nothin... just happiness.. i wish...
7:57 PM
Thursday, August 18, 2005
i've patch things back with mel.. arghh.. been so stress recently over our frenship.. din know tt we keeep so much to ourselves.. was quite happy tt we were back to the past.. haaa.. =D haa.. hmm.. veri tired recently.. been slpin quite late lor.. chat with mel n some other frens.. yea yea.. they roX! sometimes i realli wonder.. does bf means so much to mi? hai.. in fact.. it USED to be.. but not now.. maybe after wat had happen.. i tot thru seriously.. haaaa.. i like my life now.. able to plan everything for myself.. =Dtis coming sat 20 aug - mit mel n alvin for dinner nez sat 27 aug - MAY mit wilfred n guys to go clubbing at nite den MAybe dinner@ marina!i dun wan my life to revolve ard him anymore.. it's tiring.. n i hate it.. cause.. he make mi feel sooooo unimportant.. as compare to his work n stuff.. anyway.. i shall stop whinning n stop bein grouchy. =Phmm.. my birthday is comin!!!! at lasttttt i'm gonna turn 18!!! time to start takin the book the date for my basic theory le!!! wooo hOoo. i roX!
11:49 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
it's been 2 weeks or so since i blog.. can't imagine myself for not bloggin. was sick for the past few days.. =( fever. tired. exams coming. was suppose to be out with mel n alvin. but in the end i din go. because of 1 particular reason. him. again n again.. he disappoint mi. i beginnin to feel if he care. sick n tired. tml is IS presntation. gg slp soon. goodnite.To that anonymous.. if u 've the gut to write 'bitch' but y nt ur name.. dun be a coward.. if u wanna leave any commment.. KINDLY leave ur name.. zZz
12:12 PM
Monday, August 01, 2005
1st of aug. time passs sooo fast.. i'm gonna be 18 in like.. 25 days times'! well.. my pig gone missing.. yest i'm sort of piss off with him.. he choose to go clubbin den go out with mi. i'm VERI sad.. i mean.. it's been a week plus since i last met him.. and hai!! nvm lar.. it's his decision.. he has a reason for those things he planned.. anyway... i din go sch today.. =( argh. bad ger!gtg do my research on my PBL. peace off! =P
