it's the new yr eve..
i just came back from sch..
am tired now..
but stil in maple with yOngZy

anyway.. later gg ooutt wif kelvin n michael.
gg orchard.. to meet my sis..
den ard 10 plus mel n michael's cousin will be
coming down to join us

been having a terrible mood swing..
zZzz i dunnno wat i'm thinkin..
just.. dun wanna do anything..
i seem to be wondering
here n there in my own world..
i dare nt tell anyone.. i just..
keep to myself..
is the person i used to bE?
i pondered..

tis morning.. i sounded fierce..
i din know that.. till.. she msg me..
i was stunned..
i just told her.. i' nt well..
wat exactly is gg on...
i dun wish to know..
or carry on anymore..
is there any turnin pt for me??

let's just pray...

sorrie for not entering any post..
tis whole week..
eh.. din do much

mon: sch as usual
tues: haf lesson till like
2pm.. den go hm le.. cause
tutorial cancel le..
wed: haf lesson till 12pm..
den went orchard shopping..
thurs: which is today..
i din go sch.. cause onli 2 hr
lecture ...

tomolo is new yr eve..
tot of asking some1 out..
but i din.. haiz.. nvm..
since he gg out tomolo..
den nvm den..
me tomolo meet mel n sis
n other guys.. gg countdown
den... go pub drink..

aiyo..
i veri fan now..
dunnno what to do.....
driving me crazy already.....
fARK!

yesterday melissa stay at my hse..
we went dinner together.. bought titbits..
n chocolate!!! =)
deN we starTed studyin at 7.30pm..
dO maThs all the way... till 1am..
i was so tired... we got a test today mah...
den he wake me upat 6am today..
den i told mel.. "mel.. u go bath 1st.. go..
let i slack a while first" den she say still early..
den.. we fall aslp again.. den.. she sae.. i wake her
up again.. but me dunnno lor.. den she wake up at 7am..
den she wait me up at 7.15am.. i was like !!!!! wTh..
so late le.. we fastEr do our stuff.. den run...!! lol
think mel nez week coming again ba.. hahaa.. =)
i love her ... *gosh.. i'M turniN Les.. zZzz

dEn the teSt.. quite disappointing..
me got.. 75%... quite sad.. :(
but.. nvm la.. over le....
me giddy now.. dunnno y...
*cough cough*
i haben eat dinner yet.. zZzzzz
buai~

okie.. wake up veri veri early.. lol.. 8.20am.. :(
den veri tired lor.. cause andy called me last nite
to chit chat..
den we chat will like 4 am.. den.. hang the phone..
sO.. now kinda of shag ...
today me pon lessons.. bad hor..?!
aiyo.. nvm la.. long long one time..
den today went out to watch shutter..
it's a damn scary show..
i was @$T^@^$@ thruout the whole show..
some more din bring my cardigan along..
den quite cold.. :(

kkk.. tomolo melissa coming my hse.. to stay..
hahaha
i miss her.. lol.. but we nt lesbian lor...
just veri veri veri gd frens...
she's always there for me :)
ger... thanx for being there.. =)

arghhh.. i'm tired..
got sch tomolo... 10am..
i'm dEAd...

faRK!
oOpx.
haha..
kkk.. enuFF!!
just finish my MOL tutorial..
differentiation realli suX!
welll.. nvm.. forget it..
nez week will be a busy week for me..
cause... got 2 test to study...
haix.. week3 onli.. got tests..
it's gg to be crazy...
christmas ard the corner..
needa go shop for present...
:P
haha.. shooppppiiNNgg roX!
anyWay... i'M in a gooD moOd todAe..
lol...
i 'm gg crazY tooooo....
*bLeahX*

yeSterdAy niTe.. KELvin n micHaeL comE my hSe
suppose to find mE..
but dunnno y... talk to my parents...
haiX... N it'S a miracLe tat.. anDY caLLED!!!
i juSt miss him.. lol.. i stiL rmB
the dayS in vErvetuE... *soBx*
haha.. nVm.. he stay opposiTe me onli..
fRee cAn gO ouT dE.. =)

LaLAaaaLLaaaaaaaLAAaaaA.... i'M cRAZi

haiX.. haVin terRibLe moOd swiNg sinCe yeSt..
i wonDer iF i'm reaLLi in luV wiF him.. or wat..
i just.. dunn wanna know the fact...
i just keep telling myself.. "NO"
he got gf le.. anyway... arGhhh..
dun wanna talk all these any more.. :(

gg rest le.. cause.. nt feelin well again...
zZzzZzzZzzZzzzzzzzz

basically.. nothin much happen ..
something to update.. :: amos got a new gf..
i dunnno true not.. but tis is wat jon told me
anyway.. broke up le.. so.. forget it..
dun care anyway...

these few days a lot of hmwrk...
been rushing tutorial.. reports..
omg.. it's onli dec... n im still having
holiday mood
how can i.. beetttaa.. stop all these fun..
n get back to work..!!

found a job.. far east.. beside oxygenn..
sell clothes de.. $4.50 per hr..
less .. but.. okie la.. no choice..
i a spendthrift.. every week spend like
hundred over bucks will kill me...
cause i know the nez coming holiday..
i wo't have money...
lolx... i'm poorr!!!
so.. must work.. lol

my mum taking 2 job... haix..
i ask her.. "mum! are we that poor!"
den she reply me "no la.. just that.. we spend a lot"
i was like... omg.. i shld cut down on my expenses...
beeen buying lotsa stuff recently...
hahhaa.. so wat if my dad has a company...
i 'm still poorr... hahaha... not like aiting..
spend like no tomolo de..
hahaa

k.. den.. ehhh.. i just finish my reports..
now handlin a veri tough work - physic thermo..
hahaa.. a killer module i think..
but.. i aim.. straight A's.. so... jia you ba..

hmmm.. today.. quite a tiring day
lecture all the way..
today.. i wear.. not veri nice.. aso not veri ugly..
hahaha.. damn .. y shld i cmment on wat i'm wearing
=PpP
kkk.. i blog properly.. just finish phone chat with bolin n watson
haha.. mummmy taking 2 jobs ... haiz.. monday n evening..
economic not veri good..
dunnno y mum wanna taking so mani job..
mE kinda.. think back..
i shldn't spend so much.. :(((

vivi told me she dun wanna lose her dear..
hahaa.. she realli a good gf eh..
ger .. u surely can have a eva lastin relationship wif him
trust me.. =)
u just needa put in efforts in ur relationship..

truthly speaking.. which ger dun like been pamper
by their bf.. i wanna fall in luv.. haha.. lolx..
just return to single status.. now wanna be "in a relationship" again..
wat am i thinkin..
but.. the feeling of in luv .. is realli good..
esp when some one is there for u.. when u are down..
is there someone out dere for me??!!

back to sch work.. having a hell time dealin with my farking em2 ..
differentiation is damn difficult man.. i mean...
for a NO a-maths foundation like me
it's realli difficult.. :(
i'm gonna die of dy over dx ...............................

okiE.. mY sunDay.. consider not bad i guess..
went out with my dad n mum..
daddy send grandma hm..
den we went to my niece house..
today she birthday.. 1 yr old..
keyu(her jap name) pronounce as KE-U
she realli veri cute.. n chubby.. =)
den saw my cousins they all..
damn long nv see them le..

k..
den.. went hmm.. maple till now.. den blog..
later calling watson.. eHhh.. he's not my boi..
dun get the wrong idea..
hhaa.. meeting wee cheong tis coming weekend i guess...
hahhaa.. i'm a little tired..
tomolo sch le..
i still haben done my MOL..
omg.. do tomolo ba.. wat to do..
maple mess up my life..
shiT it!
hahaa..
shi xiang msg me.. den sae my nick..
den i change to "i luv shi xiang"
lol
den he change to "i luv u too la ok"
kinda lame.. hahahaa... he's a cute boi..
stay pasir ris!! damn far.. lol
i knew him in kbox.. last yr de.. ahhhaa..
sha sha de.. ZHU!
lol

kkk. me gg calll watson now.. hahaa..
btw, vivi got herself a bf..
her 1st luv wor..
realli veri happy for her..
she told me she veri xing fu..
den i told her.. being in luv is realli great
i mean the feeling..
but u know la.. when the relationship dont go the way
u wan.. it's not xing fu le.. hahaa
but.. realli
we hope for the best for her..
cause she's our dearest Vivi..
we luv her as much as her bf luv her
=))
ger .. rmb.. we're there for u.. n we luv u too..
haha.. dun "gt bf den forgot us ar"
hahaha.. k la.. wait she see tis den she 'll complain
""told u all le"" sure-ly tease me de..
hahaa.. dun shy shy le la... xing fu de zhu..!!

aiting gif me advice.. sae i shld patch with "him"..
cause he's realli veri good.. wait for me so long le..
and.. he's just good..
i know.. i know wat i shld do already ger...
won't disappoint u alll le... :)
chEeRs to ouR eVa LastiNg fRenshiP!

hi every1..
5 mins to 12am..
tomolo is my niece keyu 's birthday..
suppose to b meeting xh they all for movie..
den.. onli 3 person gg.. den nv go..
den suppose to be meeting watson for movie..
den my mum .. last min sae.. cannot..
den nv go..
den nw rotting...
wanna chiong maple.. but sian..
tomolo gonna do MOL - maths on line em2
but.. wt time 'll i be hm...
ohh ya.. speaking of sch..
matthew n chinwee suppose to be in my klass..
but they transfer out.. hahaa..
dunnno y..
think they dun like our klas.. but..
is it true???
hahhaaa...
i hate wat i'm thinkin nw...

i've been updating a lot.. sorrie every1..
anyway.. this is a busy week for me..
study study n study..
tutorial n tutorial..
n ambassadors stuff...
just kinda.. bored... sian..
okie.. i dun realli like my mentor..
she look unfriendly..
i'm made the klas treasurer..
collect money.. lol..
i'm a spendthrift ... hoW!?
i've spend a lot is week.. $152..
on bag.. nex week gonna spend me pocket money on shoe..
i'm crazy i know...
hahaa.. but wat to do..
i'm a ger!! shoPpiNg is paRt of my life...
i'm tired.. veri tired...
dyiNgg`````

tis iS gettiNg moRe n moRe jiA Lat.. hMmm.. cauSe.. i'vE nT beeN bLoggiN..!!!! omG... anyway.. wat had happen these few day?? Fri go chioNg.. sAt.. gO chioNg.. sUn go ouT witH michael.. lol.. hmm.. monday sch start.. okie.. yaH.. boring i guess... hahaa.. cause sch.. just sux.. but den.. gt mel they all .. so not veri sian.. lol... contradicting.. damn.. i lagging from maple.. tt's good man.. means i'm nt addict to it.. n that.. i can concentrate more n my studies... tomolo gg to watch movie... aiyo.. left $50 over bucks for this week nia..

DAMN it.. i just cut my hair.. now having bird hair.. lolx.. but.. okie la.. i like it a lot.. but now go out or wat must SURELY put foundation or rather concealer.. for those pimple.. hahaha... den needa buy gel n wax.. waste money sia... anyway.. cut le.. so.. Dun complain.. lol... k den.. gtg.. buai~ hahhaaa...

i brroke up wif amos... i initiate a breakup... u guys must be asking "WHY?" i aso dunnoo.. but just that.. to me... i couldn't feel a single bit of security from him.. u all must be saying "EXCUSES!" or "FLIRT" ... no.. i'm nt.. i do luv him.. even now.. i tot he understand me .. n i tot i'm happpie.. i tot tis is wat i wan.. but.. No.. i'm nt happi.. i can't feel any care from him.. he used to sms me when he wake up or call me.. n after we hang the phone.. we'll sms.. but.. it's beeen so long since i've gt that... i do love him.. though my fren said... there'll nt be any ending foor u n him one.. but.. i just dunnnooo.. on my way back.. i keep on askin myself... does he care? does he luv me? does he think of me the way i think of him nW? is he sad?? i just keep thiinkin thinkin abt him n him n him... but.. does he do the same ??? i wanna a stable relationship... i dun wanna lose him.. but thingy turn out unexpectedly... can i choose to turn back... i wanna hear his voice again... :( i'm sad...