29 juLy 2004.. i woke up @8.15am and went to sch@ 9.15am for self study.. everything was going veri well till my ocOm.. my spEech was shitty.. (to me)!!! kinda sad.. but.. i do enjoy my tennis training/practice. tiLL ard.. 7pm i guess.. den my mood start to turn sad.. i met him today! i was suppose to be happy! but y am i sad? im not sure.. my mind was in a mess den... i'm worried of this n that...(actually i'm not sure what i am thinking too). y've i becum lidat? i ask myself when i'm on my way hm.. i ask for a patch again.. shamelessly thinking that he would accept. but.. no.. he din..i'm quite disappointed.. but.. i'm glad that i actually have the courage to tell him. shld i forget him and accept another guy? i'm nt sure.. i'm sad.. terribly sad.. wtF am i doinG... bLoggin aLL my peRsonaL stuFF here...
at least.. i still have my fren's shoulder to lean on...but... what am i gg to do in the future???
i think he won't meet me tomorrow... quite saddening... now den i realise how he feel when i broke up with him.. or maybe what i'm feeling now.. is a few time worse den him.. but there's one thing for sure... i won't hate him....
